death and inception

I dreamed you dead,

Twice,

Though the first time I knew it wasn’t true.

Aching and stressful, yes,

But a dream through and through.

When I awoke to find it was not real

I thought I would find relief

Only to discover you were still dead

And I was still asleep.

I was desperate to wake up at once

And to be told it was all a lie

But no one knew how to wake me,

And I spent the rest of the night crying.

It’s this second dream that haunts me

Because it showed me pain too deep

And reminded me the worst part of loss can be

When you decide to go to sleep.