Dear Little Spaces

Dear Little Spaces,

I’ve never really told you,

How much you mean to me.

For all those days you hid me away,

When I was terribly afraid.

How you allowed me to tuck myself inside you

So the world couldn’t come and get me.

I never told you why I always came to hide,

That being small within these spaces,

Gave me a sense of safety.

Because when you are small,

You cannot be seen,

You cannot be hear saying the wrong things

And best of all you cannot take up space.

It is in these little spaces,

Where I’m most myself.

For while I am hiding away from the world,

I am building my own.

One where I can take up big spaces,

Where I am seen

I am heard

And I can take up all the space.

I am not bowing or fighting for space

To exist,

To be.

Oh my old friend,

I still come to you in adulthood.

You give my all the control and allow me to be

I can fill myself into this place.

And act if I exist.

My dearest, little spaces,

I really do love you so. But I’ve grown…

And I wish I didn’t feel so alone.

Though you gave me a place to exist

I find myself feeling so shy

And now, if I retreat to little spaces

They know.

Something is wrong…

For I don’t need to be little

Or exist in little places.

Oh my old friend,

I need to exist in the big spaces,

And learn to take up space.

You’ll always be my safety blanket.

In all those times or need,

I know I’m not done running to you,

For all the times I need to be unforgivably me.

But for now we must say good-bye

For I need to take up space,

Before the world comes to pass me by.

I have to show my voice and be seen.

You were the first place to see me,

But oh little space, please for my sake.

Let me say Good-bye.