DARKEST TO LIGHT

The things that I see

Always haunt me fluidly.

I can never run and hide

I can never seem to find-

A place to crawl and lie

And forget all their faces.

Scarring up my mind.

You think after the years I'll be able to face it.

The horrible grotesque hidden truths, and all the lies.

But it never get's easier when I am silenced by those who are supposed to protect.

In the crevices of the dark where they wait for my fear. I must hide, I must wait to be free from here.

And I wish they would listen,

Instead they look at me-

Like I'm not one of them.

If they think I'm crazy.

I don't give a damn-

I know they are tthe ones that need saving. If they can't even accept their own flesh and blood to be who they are truly .

I'm alone I know if my own family knows-

To prescribe me on drugs like I'm the one messed up.

But all they do is silence the child who wants to be seen, who wants to see beyond the cage of all that it knows.

So don't complain to me you know me better,

When you don't even show that you even care. You'd rather hide me then love me.

God... Would you even give the time to read my suicide letter if I died....

If you can't except me for who I am then why have me?

This life is pointless if I can't even be who I am.

Better ofd than facing this pathetic reality.

And I'm glad that I met people who actually give time to talk to me.

What would I be ? Where would I be right now if it wasn't for them?

I'm glad that life isn't all that bad.

Yeah, where would I be without these people who listened. Who know my pain and shared the struggle?

Who've lived the same life I have suffered, if you even call it living. We called it surviving.

I wonder if they know they helped me out a lot.

They helped me smile again, breath again.

And drop the things that numbed the pain.

I only hope I do or did the same to some of you.

To open those eyes and heal your scars.

Cause trust me when I say this,

There is a light.

There is a home that fights for your life.

And even though it feels like hell now.

There is always a brighter day, awaiting you with open arms embrace.

Even if there is a little delay.

You just gotta wait-

And see...!

The sun shines for you and me.

Reach out and find those who know what you're going through, that's where your true family lies.

You matter, just like all of us do, and don't ever dull out your colors just to please someone close to you.

We love you.