Confusion:- Feelings & Emotions

Maybe I'm losing feelings & emotions,

Sometimes they trigger hard,

I wonder if it is a good thing or not.

Emotions make you weaker or stronger?

I don't want to lose 'em

But the past makes me think twice,

Being alone, confused, lost

But can't confusion & being lost compensate for loneliness?

Grateful that I haven't been through that much,

But why this little is bothering me so much?

Was I really made to feel worthless, meaningless & a burden?

Irony, maybe I was actually doing well then,

Or should I forget about everything,

& be a new plus old me from now on, this morning.

Will I ever get out of this dilemma by myself,

Or I'll be helped out by someone?

Someone who truly understands the real me,

The confused & chaotic but a sensible me.