Confusion

I wonder how it feels to be accepted in a crowd? To be wanted and liked for who you are.

To laugh and share secrets, like movie stars. I wonder how it feels to be happy.

Smiling all the time, because you have a reason to. I wish I felt that way, instead of the way do.

I wish I could hear my laugh again. See my smile, and share my secret, that I have had no friends for 4 years now, and I wish it wasn't like this.

I want to be accepted for who I am, not if i do drugs or not, if I'm a virgin or not, or what I wear, that is or isn't cool.

I don't want to go to parties, because they are stupid. You just get drunk or high. What kind of life is that?

You just end up looking like the fool. You think it's all fun, until someone gets hurt. They drank too much or took too many drugs, so you watch them lay there, as you say goodbye my love.

It could be your sister, brother, cousin or friend. So next time you take a drink or do drugs, before you leave your house, give your family lots of hugs.

It could be you or anyone else, but no matter how much you drink or take drugs, you may never feel good about yourself or feel someones love.

So I feel sorry for you and what you think is fun, because their is so much more to life then what you think my friend.

Beautiful skies, trees and flowers. Not drinking or getting high by the hour. You could paint, sing, draw or read. There's more to life than you may see.

Written: Nov 24, 1999