Confused heart

It was just a dream I say as I shake with fear. I wish I can roll over and he could say it will be alright my dear. The feeling of him going into her room and sleeping leaves me with fear. I feel like I should ask myself what am I doing here?

My soft sweet gentile boyfriend is all I want back. But instead I sit here doing jack……. Come back to me love I miss you so much when the only thing I want to feel is your close touch. Come stay with me here in bed if we do that our thoughts won’t get to us and we wouldn’t want to be dead. The soft sweet voice of yours is what I crave as well as your kindness which kept me so calm and relaxed. I want you but there’s only so much I can do.

My sweet love was broken and is confused when all I want him to do is be happy. But inside he’s feeling more then crappy…… his soft words drifts as he says the words love….. but to my avail that can all be taken away as I stand here and look above……

Confusion he lies in and sits in. I wonder what I can do to take it all away. The weeks go on but all I want to do is just repeat those days. I sit here harping in the past wishing that whatever we had can still be. But to my extent I don’t want reality to kick into me. This mess I lie in wishing what could be instead I’m sitting here in my thoughts and it’s simply just drowning me.

His trust was broken from a girl like me. All his insides are torn why can’t I see…. Like a latch that was broken I lie here and think I wonder if it can be fixed. I guess only time will tell….

I miss the good morning love,and the hearts and kisses that we sent if only this didn’t happen. I wouldn’t be sitting here thinking about what this can be. Heartbroken is what I feel so I guess I’ll say let’s hope for the good and get along with my day…..