Colors

When Sean died the color left him

I held his hand and felt it cold between my fingers

The fog that harrowed after made nothing look the same

And yet you came along with auburn hair

skin whiter than your smile

And through your eyes I found grey can still be beautiful

A dozen reasons and now your gone as well

the puss in heart you left behind now molders in its green

Yellow in its weeping too scared to love again

But little by little

In those I found around me

Flickering like candles in the dark

A glow enough to write in shaking fingers

I dont forgive you

I dont think I can

But maybe

When the bleeding stops

And the scab browns enough to beat again

Ill open my eyes

Unafraid of color yet again