Color Bind

Neurodiversity is an umbrella of colors

Color creates reactions

It changes thinking patterns

When I was diagnosed with depression, I was sky blue

The fluttery emotions of anguish and confusion matched too

Thick forest brush and rain never dried

Blues and greys became one with my shadow's eye

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But when I was told I had OCD

My neurons stained red

I wasn't neurotypical, just defined as "strange" instead

If I had the option, I would take out my amygdala

I am not sure why my bones ached before tests

The nervousness damaged my joints and fibula

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The psychiatrist's voicemail said my anxiety was potent

Colors of mental illness came together, a mathematical quotient

No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get rid of my worry

My hands created pink strands of distraction

I figured I belonged in society's separate factions

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Although the medical scans don't show light in my lobes

I know that these colors seep into our globe

Being neurodivergent diverts my normal thinking

But the color schemes it creates means light refracts off my beams,

The rainbow stays twinkling.