Christ…You’ll Know, One Day

Why a day was too long,

Why I wouldn’t wait,

Why I never left,

Why I didn’t stay,

Too long just long enough,

Not enough room to cry,

Heavy sunshine,

Low tide,

Smiling with misery,

Laughing in pain,

I never could learn to dance in the rain,

Ill with people I hate,

It doesn’t matter,

My problems should wait,

Never look at her eyes,

Don’t learn to cry alone,

Why is nothing ever the same?

It’s never easy,

My mind never will be,

Waging was for eternity,

Somehow this,

Is life now.

I can’t focus,

The sky is too near,

There are too many colours

Popping ou like a spear,

Through my pre-frontal cortex,

My head’s like a tunnel,

Music doesn’t taste the same,

Colours don’t shine the same,

When I can hear, words are blunt,

When I can see, nothing is in front,

It makes me laugh to tell you,

“I’ve never felt so alone”

To pretend that contemplation doesn’t chill me to the bone,

I have been the enemy, I’ve been all I’ve got,

People smile when I cry,

The world darkens when I laugh,

Happiness is not familiar,

I just don’t feel sad,

I miss those simpler times,

Like th moon misses dead stars,

Like Venus smiles upon Mars,

Like the Earth, I block them,

I keep them apart,

“That makes no sense” is what you say

What is it you know? Nothing yet

Christ…you’ll know, one day.