Chase the Thought

Tender breast

More tender still

You ache in pain

you wish to kill

do you?

Why do you wish me ill?

Is it because I refuse to feel?

refuse to feel, refuse to heal

Anger

Anger bubbles up inside

HIDE HIDE

you insulant Swine

Don't show yourself

too much pride

Too much on the line to show my true side

too raw

Ensue the cause

what is YOUR dream

what are you dreaming

in your sleep

sleep deep

deep sleep

Eat my desires up

in your vivid

vivid nightmares

create

fear

fear to sleep

sleep later

When I can no longer hold my head up from being too tired

awake awake

in the middle of the night

sweat dripping

zombie to the washroom

zombie back to bed

Exhausted

sad

alone

alone again

Aching heart

Heartache

Heart... break

love

You've gone away

were you ever really here?

You filled my head with fear

say it

Say I love you

I can hear the lies in your eyes

and see the fire on your tongue

I want to run

HIDE

HIDE

I want to be alone

I want to be home

Where is my home

Do I have a home?

do you?

Is it you?

who

who are you?

Not the you that I saw before

different somehow

how...

kind

How kind of you

To be so kind

Where are your cruel words when I say I'm trying

Did you forget your knife shaped tongue

When you decided to speak to me tonight

Are you pretending?

How can I trust you?

I don't know

I think you're lying...

are you lying?

Say it

Say I love you

All I see are stars in your eyes

stars that bring joy to mine

You are different

You don't twist your fingers around each other behind your back when you're talking to me

all i hear is honesty

How do I receive honesty?

when all i'm used to is lies lies lies

Sweet tender words fall out of your mouth

before they are replaced by harshness

When you try to tell me about

How you do not want to love me

but how can you help yourself to the nectar that flows from within me

if you do not want to open yourself to my tenderness and love

What selfish desire makes you think

you can have me temporarily

I am not temporary

I am everlasting

endless

I am time itself

time flows through me as if it does not exist

And you want to run away from me

because I am too powerful for you to continue to hide behind the visor that kept you safe when you were young

it is a useless visor now

it only tears you apart

it only takes out your heart

you said I am powerful

then you said you don't deserve me

You are scared of the way I can unbend time to show only truth

truth scares you

I bring too many feelings to the table

feelings scare you

I understand this

but here I am

You cannot have me without all these feelings

and you cannot leave me and forget I exist

My name is burned into your heart

My soul is intertwined with yours

there is no escaping this

this love

is ours

and you

you want to run and HIDE HIDE HIDE