Changes

Laying here while the night is quiet

You’re by my lonely side

We are meant to be but why do I fear

I fear that I will die alone

Yet, you’re right here sleeping silently

Why can’t I?—

Why can’t I sleep with comfort?

Why can’t I close my eyes and rest?

Is it because I know myself;

Yet, you’re still discovering?

Will I leave before the sun comes up

Or will I still lay?

I told you I wouldn’t leave

But don’t have faith in my vows…

I’m a person of no honor

I’m a person of guilt and shame

I’m a person who can’t decide

I laid with many who thought I would be by their side…—

Do I get up or do I stay?

Do I sleep or do I lay awake?

Do I change or do I stay the same?

How can one change their way?