Calm Before the Storm

You see me smiling,

But don’t be fooled by it.

You see me laughing,

But you don’t know what thoughts going in my head.

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I may look calm,

But a storm is raging inside me.

I may look confident,

But I feel weak beneath the facade.

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I feel I will burst anytime,

But I am still still trying to control my emotions.

I feel stuck on my life now,

But what can I do, I can’t move forward.

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The calm before the storm is what they say.

This is driving me crazy.

Feeling madness with all this fakeness.

Trying to fit in a world you feel you don’t belong.

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I will fake my smile,

I will fake my laugh,

I will fake living,

Until I finally feel that I am living.