Breaking The Silence

Being sagacious about my anger. Hung it up like a hanger.

Feeling alone, turned me into your myrmidon, no choice in the matter on my behalf. Castration like a calf but it wasnt my balls. It was my innocence, purity and all.

I don't feel blameless maybe it was my fault. I should've spoke up! Should've faught!

Too pretty to bright to happy for you. So you took my smile and broke it in two.

What took you so long if someone did this too you? This seems misleading, are you sure it's true? The questions I got from the family I loved provided no reassurance no support at all. So why break the silence, why scream so loud when no one's listening?

So I disassociate and lock away my heart like a file. But it's time to take charge screaming for my inner child. Nobody protected her, nobody cared, left alone in the dark and scared. This is your burden it's not mine to bare.

I am not to blame that's just not fair. Speaking up and speaking out showing everyone they can't count me out. my family is behind you but I walk alone.

Couldn't bare to see you but you didnt answer the phone. Now I find myslef walking into your home. Acknowledge you hurt me and feel my pain. The things you did made me change. I remember everything & think about it everyday. When you took accountablility it took your power away!

You no longer have control, no longer have a hold. The healing process begins. The mission is complete showing everyone i'm the one to beat. Telling my truth has set me free! Defending my inner child for the days she was left behind. I see you even though everyone pretends to be blind. My eyes are open and so is my heart. I forgive you but I won't forget.

Now that I'm free my new life can start.