Bloody Murder

Last night in my dreams I finally

Took a step off the box that held my weight

And then I weighed nothing because I

Was falling farther

Than I had ever fallen before

And when I landed, I broke every bone

That you had put back together for me,

I laid in a pool of my own blood and

Screamed bloody murder at the thought

Of being alive and alone for another day.

Desperate for it all to end, I prayed

For a vicious murder of crows

To peck my vocal cords out

And rip out the eyes from my head,

For they are not mine anyway.

I screamed for them to end it all for me ,

To take me with them as they fly

And spread my mangled body around

Until no piece is left to abuse

But they left, like I was nothing,

Leaving me bloody and severed

In a garden filled with white roses,

So clean and so pure that it made me

Feel filthy and completely used up -

Too used up to ever be touched again,

Too damaged to ever love again and

Too broken to matter.