Blink

Blink once.

The paint hasn’t changed on the ceiling still.

Blink again.

The clock hands continue bouncing in their circle.

Blink.

Try breathing through your nose instead.

Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale.

Blink.

Do I talk to myself too much? Maybe I don’t see my friends enough? Have I been neglecting my work? What if everyone actually hates me.

Blink.

Shit.. I forgot to keep breathing no wonder my chest is tight.

Blink.

Why are my cheeks wet? Why are my cheeks warm? When did my nose get stuffed? Why am I a continues fuck up?

Blink. Fuck. I forgot to keep breathing.

Blink.

Inhale.

Blink.

Exhale.

He never loved me; he couldn’t have.. Who could love this? I bet you I fuck up this relationship too. Why am I not getting better? What fixes this shit?

Blink.

Shit. I can’t even breath like a normal person.

Blink.

Blink.

The paint on the ceiling hasn’t changed.