Betrayed

The day tears flowed freely

The veil tore before my eyes

My heart wrenched in pieces

Hands cold and trembling

My worst fears lay bare

Before my very eyes

Oh the lips that spoke lies

The arms that gave no comfort

The eyes that betrayed me

To look now upon you

Would be to admit my mistake

To accept that I was wrong

All along

Who's to be the shield against my fears?

My defense against the truth?

Me? The betrayer of self and soul

You? The pain I wish I was never made to bear

Tell me

Who will be my salvation

Cuz you and I have failed

We are both losers in this game of love

To admit to you

That what I feel is pain

Sheer pain

That my heart aches

With pains too deep to explain

Would that cost me the last shred of hope I have?

Would that give me all that I lost?

I shudder at the thought of it

Will this world, my world

come crushing?

Would it cave for a new beginning

Or would I crumble with all that I have known and felt and seen

Would I fade away with it's memories; hopes and dreams?

When I close my eyes

I see a hand reach out to me

I hear a longing deep and loud

I feel a warmth new and welcome

Do I simply fall asleep at the lull of this call

Or do I rise with deep agony

Take what I've been dealt?

Sleep is my only comfort

My escape from the harsh reality

So for now

I close my eyes

I rest for I am weary

Even now, in this solitary place

My soul finds rest