Beautifully Chaotic

Beautifully Chaotic

Memories, of the past resurface again

Haunting me, payment for my sin

Soul searching my heartache, uncontrolled mental rage as I'm stuck in this cage... why can't I just be free

Don't wanna be alone, just wanna be left alone instead

Noises, all the screaming voices in my head

Soul searching my heartache, uncontrolled mental rage as I'm stuck in this cage... why can't I just be free

Enigmatic visions of the word as it is today

Confronting and teaching myself on what I have to say

A broken me is not exotic

It's beautifully chaotic

A penance paid, a long time ago

Suffering, a pain you should not know

Difficulty these days, a whispering scream towards the Heavens... Just let me be at peace.

The fire in my heart, creates a red burning coal

Where do I even start, different shades of black make up my soul

Difficulty these days, a whispering scream towards the Heavens... Just let me be at peace.

Enigmatic visions of the word as it is today

Confronting and teaching myself on what I have to say

A broken me is not exotic

It's beautifully chaotic

Silence and apathy pouring down like poison rain

Burning my skin and I can't take on all the pain

Severed myself from the world that is too real

Protecting myself so I'm not forced to feel

Alone is an emptiness felt like the heat from a flame

No one is in me, and no one is to blame

This curse is my fate and my right to be me

Separated from reality in a struggle to feel free

Enigmatic visions of the word as it is today

Confronting and teaching myself on what I have to say

A broken me is not exotic

It's beautifully chaotic

Matt Turner

07/19/2019

Beneath the skin and broken skull, I see me free from this cage. Don’t forget the motives that burn, and the silent screams of rage. When I fall from where I stand, I soon will start to rise. This defeat you see upon my face, is only a disguise. Music is an outlet. It drives the demons away and brings peace to a sometimes chaotic mind.