Balance

The evening was beautiful and the streets were hot . Standing on the left side of the sidewalk . Loud sounds of cars passing by me at a long red light . I stood amazed about everything surrounding me . I felt like the entire world was on pause for me . This moment became a real highlight of what being still truly means . Did I really understand the balance between stillness and busyness. The good news, I needed both to maintain this thing we call life . Truth is stillness draws you into yourself. Being still can be uncomfortable for some and amazing to others . Stillness pulls your thoughts in. Reflecting on important things you should accomplish or things you need to just sit and process. My night life didn’t exist in nightclubs not often ,so I needed to be creative in enjoying outdoors . You can find stillness even people watching . I’ve always admire the idea to predict what someone name could be and what is happening with them in that moment. Some would call it being nosey , but not in my eyes . Prior to my stillness ,I had the need to always feel like I needed to connect with people . Having the most in depth conversations with a stranger always felt safe to me . What I didn’t realize, I was taken on burdens that had nothing to do with me . I wasn’t setting boundaries for myself . I was trying to fix people and inspire others. There’s nothing wrong with this gesture. The only thing I didn’t ask myself. Where’s the balance in all of this ? Somewhere, in these moments control played a huge factor .The lack of control of my own life . Things were in a spiral yet , it felt better bringing healing to someone else especially a stranger . You can have a intriguing conversation with someone without judgement . I often thought could they really see me ?My truth was bigger than the idea of talking with strangers . I became a stranger within myself . I didn’t discover this until I became completely still with myself . This wasn’t a over night turn around experience. It took many days to process this self acceptance. Being stilll looked different inwardly . I had moments when judgement wasn’t necessary. All I needed was to embrace this space of truth . It felt liberating, when I learn the balance of stillness and boundaries. Now , I can still have conversations with strangers but , I have a different approach. I had to unlearn that fixing someone else wasn’t my responsibility. I could share my opinion if I needed . The idea of feeling self obligated had to stop . I noticed a shift as I continue to walk along the bright streets that night . Everything looks lighter when your in your stillness moment. Time isn’t a factor and you’re in no rush to be any where . You just allow yourself to just be . No expectations during this time . As the night becomes young . You awake the next day with a burst of energy. Being still brings a level of balance . Your thoughts are much clear and your emotions are in its perfect alignment. Now I’m living daily to experience balance and awareness. You can only have balance with a made up mind . When off balance you have permission to realign yourself and start over . The most beautiful thing you can offer yourself is to look inwardly without blaming anyone else. That’s true balance of life .