i'm the bad guy
because my honesty
maker Your tongue sharper
it's me
because when i say
the wrong thing
Your blood boils
You can't contain
the heat
it's my fault
Your words pierce
through me
like a dagger
i'm to blame
for Your reactions
to my problems
and when You yell
until my cheeks are salty
Your eye hollow
soul empty
i turn numb
the only thing i can be
i stare into nothing
as Your razor sharp words
get thrown at me
maybe this is where
i find internal peace
in the midst of chaos
as You trample my heart
i retract mentally
to be alone
when you talk to Others
you are totally different
you laugh and smile
but i do not exist
not in a world
where you are happy
and as i sit beside you
loneliness engulfs me
moments you love Me
are when I game with you
when I open my legs for you
but I am so numb
I feel nothing at all
no love
no pain
no joy
no shame
no fear
fuck...
I need to get out of here
About the Creator
Tanya Lei
In a blank space, captivating words flow freely to create something that has not existed before.
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Lightning Never Strikes Twice
The distant rumble, the sudden deluge, the crescendo of sound, the flash of light, the explosive energy — it never gets old. I became an amateur storm chaser about two years ago. My wife, Cindy suggested it. Sort of. She said, "Alex, you know this cancer is killing me. I've come to terms with that, but you're smothering me. Go join a band, write a book, or become a storm chaser, for all I care. I love you, but you need a hobby."
By Julie Lacksonen6 days ago in Fiction
Comments (3)
This was so poignant. I hate narcissists. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️
I'm so sorry for your experiences. Sending you lots of love.
Shhhhhit. This cuts deep. Sorry you experienced this. Written really exceptionally well, my friend.