At Peace By Myself

I’m having your child yet I’m not even showing

But shortly there won’t be a doubt

I know where I’ve been, but not where I’m going

I’m at peace how it’s all turning out

I made you aware because you had a part

Though you seemingly couldn’t care less

I’ve met the true “You” and it troubles my heart

You’re now something I need to address

Our “passion” was reckless I have to admit

“Irresponsible” too comes to mind

We can’t change our history, not even one bit

So I’m leaving that chapter behind

You brought up abortion and asked if it’s yours

I’ve never before felt so sick

I felt like a veteran of too many wars

Or that player that no one would pick

The “help” that you offer, well don’t even bother

Because that’s just compounding our sin

Making a child doesn’t make you a father

A true Dad’s completely all-in

We started a life I’m unwilling to kill

No matter how much you insist

Just know I’m not bitter, nor harbor ill will

But I’m gonna demand you assist

My parents have also revealed they’re concerned

They’re aware of the struggles I’ll face

They’ve paid for a lawyer in case I get burned

So that’s what I’ll do just in case

For once in my life I’ve the backbone to fight

Cos I owe it to this girl or boy

I knew my decision to keep it was right

When the ultrasound filled me with joy