And So I Leave

At dawn, I venture out

Of our newly ended life together

You say you found someone new

Who is better than me.

*

I hold in a sigh

Not letting it escape within your hearing

Tears prickle my eyes

And so I turn my head away.

*

Feigning nonchalance

Like our breakup means nothing to me

I stride from our home

and into my new world.

*

Desolation has found a new home

Within my soul space

As I load up my car

I’m an emotional wasteland.

*

I don’t know where it came from

Your desire to leave me

I thought we were happy

At least I was.

*

I am not so self-centered

To think I’ve been blameless

But at this moment

I know nothing,

Of what happened to end our hopes

Born from our high school romance

Of growing old together

As was once our dream.

*

I wish I could say

That I wish you well

And with your new partner

You’ll be happier than with me.

But I can’t, and I don’t.

*

I want what will never happen, I know

I want us back together

To rebuild our dreams.

But in my heart

I know

This will never be,

So I leave our home, for the last time.

I originally published this poem on Medium in May 2021 https://medium.com/the-lark/and-so-i-leave-f4bc8eb5c528