An Open conversation with my baby girl…

Daddy why'd you give up on me , in a faint sad whisper

I never gave up my heart longed for thee it's you I thought that got turned against me

Her eyes narrow into a fiery scowl, no you left me daddy found another to replace me daddy

There was no replacing you Kammy, you were the perfect treasure amazing to me, I don't know what your mother said or did, but that cold October day on hollows Eve I came to see you, you wouldnt look at me. Every glance I made you turned away, expensive nice toys you left for other children to play. My heart shattered and froze over that day.

Yes because you had left me replaced us. She showed me pictures daddy of you with another, another daughter and said you I can not trust... Her face turns tho a cold scoff devoid of emotion or love only bitterness and void like an empty fallen tree that's hollow.

You I never left, never replaced, you've always been my favorite treasure, my miracle, my wonder and hope the one thing that filled me and brought me peace. Move on and start a new I admittedly try to do but with out you internally everyday I weep.

Tears form in my eyes like beads of water on a humid cup

No daddy you shouldn't have left, nevertheless taken pictures with another daughter saying you replaced me

Her face livid red hands folded in an angry defiance.

Things I said and may have told your mother were meant for her, but she knew you were the only weapon she had against a man like me. So she showed you a turned you against me feeding you lies and things you shouldn't see. Without you I'm as empty as can be. But I hope you remember what i said regarding you, your brother and me. The triforce I always said and claimed between us three. My two perfects seeds. Without you kamilla I cease to be.

I don't know daddy. I don't know what to believe. My hearts broken to such tiny pieces they feel like ashes scattered about the sea. Strong I go on but I'm like an empty box outside pretty as can be but inside this empty space can not be filled by anybody.

I know my dear for I feel the same. As a man I must be strong but without you my dear I feel like an old empty ship out at sea. Pirates wiped me clean of any treasure and crew stowed aboard. Now I just float around hauntingly hollow empty and worn. Longing for the day you come back, so you can stand beside my ghost crew and we can set off into the sunset how we are supposed too.

I don't know daddy, I still don't know what to believe. I can't believe or see how you could just stop fighting for me. Her face still red and angry but I see light underneath a glimmer of hope.

I never stopped fighting or quit and that I hope you'll see. For time is a bitter enemy of mine, sometimes he escapes me and ensnares me hoping I get left behind. In the struggle I'm lost fighting to survive. But through it all you never left my mind. I prayed and waited for the day I felt I was strong enough and in a position to fight for my place in your life. Like Odysseus I journied through trials and tribulation waiting to come back and claim both you and my redemption. I clung to prayer that God would shine his light and make things right and with a few years you'd see it was alienation and not abandonment my dear.

For you I'm always here, I'm always near. Id gladly tear the heart out of my own chest or give you my last breath to make sure you were blessed. I fought for your life and long to be by your side. Im here if you'll have me and will never turn my back, abandon or turn my back on my prized angel, not just from my seed but a gift from heaven itself.

Her eyes are heavy and confused. Pain, hurt and hope seem to stir inside those big squirl eyes. Well daddy I just don't know. I don't know what to believe, but mommy says no, she made me let you go. So daddy I just don't know.