Am I fit to be here?

I’m a failure as a daughter

I’m a failure as a mother

All I really am

Is nothing but a bother

Can’t sleep cant eat

Cant stand on my own two feet

Watching those I love suffer

I know what I must do

In order to save everyone

I must bid you all ado

Life is full of regrets

Will death be full of them too?

This thing I feel the need to do

Is it really the thing to do?

If I stay I am a hassle,

If I go I am a quitter

If I go I get my release

If I stay I will feel bitter

But if I stay I help my kids

To be the best they can

If I go I break their hearts

Is that who I am?

I don’t want to hurt them,

But make them live true life

I feel I am not a fit

As a mother daughter or a wife

Should I stay or should I go

I really do not know

But if I do decide to go

Bad things happen that I know

So here I stay for now at least

In misery and in pain

To hide my hurt and pain inside

And dance in the pouring rain