Always & Forever


You were my unforbidden love, my never ment to happen, my savior from life's tragedies, my beautiful disaster. That was wrapped in compassion, yet you were trapped in sadness & just couldn't get past it. That pain had you crashing, your whole life you trashed it. but lets look back when imortal love was the teacher of the class that you just couldn't master. Never knew your father so they considered you a bastard.

Your problems started young a troubled home with your moms. She did her best for you, did everything she knew and yet, still the anger in you grew. you just wast ready for love yet. You didnt know the value of hugs yet. See your dilemma is you don't allow yourself to feel in order to heal. You just sweep everything under the rug, hoping that it would heal, only what memories and time can reveal. But time passed and life humbled you cheaply as you aged. But then you met she; who brought all your pain to it's knees. In this story of your near perfect life with your almost wife. She was everything you needed. it wasn't your body but your soul that she greeted and respectively treated. god saw you begging so he allowed you to recieve her. And with a whisper as faint as the wind on a  hot summes day she leaned in close and said "show me all the parts of you that you dont love, so i can know where to begin!" And with those words that's where the mystery began. And by no means was she a mastermind or a professional at love, She had just simply mastered the art of heartbreak. And no matter the cost she knew she would never let your heart ache. Because she had been you, lived your story times a few. So some nights she danced with tears in her eyes

But in your big brown eyes she saw the real you. Behind the mask of this painful world she saw straight to YOU! A ocean of love she knew she needed to drown you in, just to revive you so you could see the man within. But even with eyes washed by the the sea you still didnt beleive it. You were so broken from your past that even after she showered you with love, you drowned her with your pain. And as the embodiment of understanding she understood that pain changes people. See she had been dealing with betrayal, her whole life she had grew immune to it, as well as its painful side effects. So like a tree planted by the ancestors, watered by the spirits and watched over by the universe, she stood by you. As a reassuring hand to guide you. And it's not to to be misunderstood that just because she was free spirited it didn't mean that everyone could afford her, she was as priceless as time. Time being the only currency with ineradicable merit. the only currency that you can spend, but never make. Time cannot be transcribed, fabricated or begged. Just as she! No longer  petrified with being alone. Her worst fear is now not to be alone but to be as unremarkable as love is immortal. She was painfully aware of her strength and knew that the man for her would fathom that she is both a vanquisher and legionary. she is full of traumas & imperfections, yet unabashed & brazen. And when the last leaf fell from her trying roots she bellowed out a melody so sweet and let all her pain loose. And with a whisper as faint as a dying man's last breathe she said to him "you told me you were intimidated to be without me, but then you faced your demons and left." But somehow I am ubiquitous to your AWOL it's the darkest place I've ever had to have taken up residence in. her words lingered in his ear like moths to a flame. Yet in the wisps of the wind's that she wrapped him in he heard, "we defeated each other by biding our time till the other showed if they are still cared and yet I hope & anticipate that you discover someone who loves you like I still do."