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All In Sight -

Eluding intrusions.. Decisions built in avoidance.. Retreating from this overwhelming darkness stemming within my head.. Shadows envious of any love.. Hate to be sent out.. Casting away attention by others.. Processing phantasms..

I define the sky by the way you see it .. Never again by the way I perceive it..

Games are being played.. Players restricted to the battlegrounds set up inside my head.. Hard fought wars..

Still I only have losses to confusion.. Bleeding struggles out of my hearts contusion.. All the love that I expect is a Illusion..

I defined our sky by the way you seen it .. Not by the way I chose to perceive it..

Descriptions.. Who knows who’s true depiction.. I choose to live by art and to die by you.. How is my portrayal ? Rate it on a sliding scale.. Performance based gains.. Only to receive nothing in return.. Allowing so much room for doubts..

I can’t trust my lies..

Enjoying the views only from your eyes..

All images of myself are distorted.. Only having a slight resemblance of a person that I may have known.. In this version of life I’m broken.. Pieces of me to remain scattered.. Dwelling on devastation.. Life’s on fire.. Nothing here to admire.. Do I still inspire ?

I define the sky by the way you see it.. Not by the way I perceive it..

Release is someone I crave.. Who’s the last name you saved.. What was something that you gave ? Do I need to behave ? Let us share deep breaths.. Grieve for relief.. Looking to the beyond for remedies..

I will never again see the way you seen it.. I will never know how you perceived it..

No longer feeling sympathies.. Desiring the untouchable.. Do you know I’m still unstable ? Are we still able to coexist ? My existence feels more like a disease.. Someone stole my gifts.. Be careful when you cause rifts.. Why is divine adrift ?

Define the sky.. I’m looking to believe.. It is all in sight.. Can I ever get it right ?

Ego is something that I had to learn to let go.. No real way that I found to use it.. Just a heavy emotionaly draining irrational connection through it.. My maintenance is no kept up by ghosts.. only imagine how they disregard their host.. Making my needs feel so un real.. Taking over my gears so that there is nothing left to steal..

Is anything that we seen together real ? You taught me to unfeel.. That’s how I see it..

Learning only now to keep all reprisals strictly contained within my current headspace.. I no longer want to face you.. Tripping on every love that I managed to stumble upon.. No longer will I walk down paths that I have already bled on.. All those dreams need to be gone..

I want to define the sky by the way my love perceives it.. Problem is.. Once I do I can never unsee it..

All In Sight..

Poetry by Cycle Of Scars

Artwork by Artist Unknown