this light
i hold
is all
i have left
a minor spark
amid a galaxy
of dead stars
within me
.
this light
i hold
this little ember
and i’m neither blind
nor confined
.
old smiles
new tears
.
cold miles
few fears
.
held so close
none can see
held so near
where it’s needed most
held tight –
near
.
to ward against
the dark
and the night
to stand fast
against what gathers
.
this light is mine
it's all i know
it needs to breathe
so, i can grow
.
i need to feed the fire
without burning who i am
to stay true
to the self i choose
.
this now
this quiet becoming
.
this has nothing
to do
with you
About the Creator
Bren
"It's just a token of my extreme!" - Frank Zappa
"Cause it's all in the heat of the moment It's all in the pain!!!" - Devin Townsend
Centre Stage with the wonderful Heather Hubler
I'm writing it out not acting in doubt!
Day 4 of Quitting
If this is how sobriety feels, maybe it’s better to go through life a little buzzed… this, along with other hits like, I want to kill myself, I wish I was dead, and I’m going to throw myself off a bridge have been the only thoughts on rotation these past few days. I promise myself that if, in a month, I still feel like this (‘this’ meaning despondent, full of rage, and simultaneously numb) I can go back to smoking. Until mid-February though? Nicotine is off the table.
By sleepy drafts4 days ago in Longevity
Comments (2)
Those last lines, wow, "this now/this quiet becoming/this has nothing/to do/ with you." This is hard stuff to work through, but I appreciate that you're taking the time to self-reflect and come out stronger. A very emtional piece.
OHHHHH Okay so this is giving "I'd rather see your star explode" vibes (check it out on Spotify-great song)