Adult High School Love

I was captivated by you then,

Your kindness I adored

We started off as friends,

Hanging at the back of the school sharing jokes.

Our friends groups were intertwined

So you were hard to miss.

All the girls used to joke with you

About wanting just one kiss.

Looking up into your eyes,

I was always a loss for words

When you would smile back at me,

It felt like you were looking into my soul.

We danced with this secret love

For years to come,

Like star crossed lovers in the night

When we were off and on with someone.

Then finally we got our chance,

And boy was it ever fun,

We fell in love and lived everyday

Just like we were young.

From nurf gun wars to notebook nights

You were all that I could ever want…

Then like a change in tides,

Real life started to get hard.

A multitude of choices started to pile up,

Question without answers

Like could we really overcome anything with love?

Would you be able to adapt to a life you didn’t choose?

Would non stop days with kids around be too much for you?

Would my heart be able to take walking away again?

Could I ever go back to the days when we were just friends?

And just like a title wave, my fears made everything stop

My anxiety got way to high and I pushed the eject button on us.

What pains the most is all the things that you will never know.

I didn’t leave because you did anything wrong, it’s was because I loved you more.

I wanted you to have the chance to at least be able to choose,

And I knew you loved me to much to do it for you.

Who knows what the futures holds but there is ones thing that I’m sure

Whenever I look back on life, there’s a time capsule of our love.