Addiction

Addiction took from me everything that I loved;

Even the family that I once hugged;

The father that wasn’t enough;

Don’t even call me on my bluffs.

My earliest memory of you, is how I didn’t even matter;

You got good at hiding it so my heart you did shatter;

I only ever wanted you to be my dad;

But you got me hurting and acting mad.

Drugs had you before I knew what they were;

Most of that is all a blur;

I blocked it out to hide the pain;

Too many times I’ve done the same.

Then it was my role models, my older sisters;

Those nights have left permanent blisters;

I lost you both so quick;

It was so hard to decide which side to pick.

Then it was you, the biggest part of it all;

You promised not to let me fall;

I don’t know when it went so wrong;

Left me feeling I didn’t belong.

No one said it was ever easy;

Took the good girl and made her sleazy;

She did it all for the attention;

The lines stole her soul, did I mention?

It all started when she started loving that man;

Falling so deep never even was the plan;

He had problems more than she knew;

She’d seen it all her life but couldn’t believe it was true.

She begged him to stop but he never could;

She didn’t want to leave but knew that she should;

She turned into the girl who she hate;

Not a girl you’d want to date.

She lied, she stole, she cheated, and stripped;

Yet she still didn’t see how far she had slipped;

It wasn’t until she tried to get clean;

That she had realized she had become a fein.

She knew she had to get away;

This was a game she no longer wanted to play;

She hated herself for that;

Leaving him to fall flat.

She ran away while he got worse;

Heroin and fentanyl had him trapped in the curse;

She pretends that wasn’t her past;

Because of how long it did last.

Only some know what’s true;

And why she is still so blue;

It’s hard to let go of someone you love;

Even if they’re up above.

He passed away not too long ago;

How much she misses him, she tries not to show;

It isn’t fair that she is still here;

He left too many with a tear.

She keeps on going every hard day;

Because heroin ruined all of her say;

Addiction is hard but we do recover;

She’ll be okay as long as you love her.