A Whole New Woman

I face myself head on

I take radical responsibility

for my mistakes and my flaws

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I call myself out

more than anyone else

because I know that's the only way

I can grow and change

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I am my greatest life long project

Always transforming

Like poetry dancing on a page

Never quite finished

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I'm not who I was last year

I'm not who I was last month

I'm definitely not who I was

when I spoke to you last

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When you were emotionally unavailable

I was ready to open myself up to you

and do what it takes to make amends

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NOW

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I refuse to reach out

to anyone

who refuses to honor

my value

my time

my feelings

or

my existence

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I won't accept

anything less

than someone

giving me their all

Doing the work

to give me their best

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I won't put in the work

for someone who is too proud

to put the work in themselves

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I'm unavailable

for half-assed love

that looks good on paper

but remains unexpressed

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I'm not putting my heart

on the line to someone

who can't even feel

the beating in their own chest

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I'm not the same woman that I was

that's why I am unable to accept

the person that you have portrayed

Because you haven't proved to me

that you've become the man you can be

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All you've shown me is that you still behave

like the boy that you have always been