A Longing Of Love | Part 1

Within daylight, I play my role,

The facade of “normal”, but with a heart contains a hole

Laughter, dinners, lunch and smiles of family galore,

But, within my sanctuary, a dark world I adore.

Gentle touch of Mom and Dad’s gracious grin,

Our home, filled by love but I only pretend to fit within.

As night descends, though, and silence falls,

My…secret, an obsession, like a siren it calls.

Vaulted in my space, away from suspecting eyes,

In these shadows, my obsession dwells low to high.

My hands they tremble, racing heart,

Delving into “my” world, harshly tears me apart.

This image, shrined upon my wall,

A man that my heart enthralls.

In my dreams, his voice whispers are all I hear,

In my eyes, he will draw near.

With my life, I guard my secret, such a forbidden flame,

Among my…thoughts, he bears little shame.

But in the light of reality, I am ensnared,

A young soul with a valuable love unshared.

Sadly, behind these doors, I continue on alone,

In my world, my heart turning to stone.

This secret, my obsession, my burden to bear,

A loud silent scream fills the night’s cold air.

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