A Girl Made of Wax

Remembering when we met, I never imagined for a millisecond you'd mean this much to me

Our first kiss, your lips pressed perfectly contrasting the cold as they clumsily clambered over mine

I couldn't fathom how much that frigid first would begin

Couldn't grasp the flame it would start in my stupid chest

Your lips were sparks to my gasoline heart

Igniting my everything.

You are my everything.

You burned like a wildfire through me

You threw me with your brilliance

You fit me like puzzle pieces pieced together perfectly

To create something more

You make me something more.

You've etched yourself on the backs of my eyelids so when I shut my eyes you're all that I see

And your voice rings in my ears every second, a symphony

And I think about the way your lips scramble over my scattered scars

Like stars in the sky, tracing constellations with kisses

I think about the way your arms feel so right around my shoulders

As if this body were a shared space between us

Ignoring the scared place within us

Whispered fears into the phone

Silently screaming,

Shouting "how's this gonna end?"

Because nothing this good was never meant to last

This feels like a rollercoaster I didn't ask to ride

I'm at the tippy top

Waiting for the drop

And wondering if you'll still be there

When I make it to the bottom.

If i make it to the bottom

Will i make it to the bottom?

Because I'm sure my insecurities will dig trenches between us

And neither of us will be able to cross them

If we build a bridge out of our broken pieces we'll have nothing left

To stitch together our humpty dumpty hearts with

Maybe I'm Icarus

And you're the sun

A girl made of wax

Your love weakens the wings that keep me afloat

The longer I'm near you, the less I can stand being alone

I'll plummet

Falling for you

Burning

Melting

You still make me melt

Chocolate kisses dripping as my heart pools in my stomach

You make me giddy

And sometimes I think that nobody in the entire world has ever felt this way

But we are so young and

Maybe it's stupid

But god damn, I'm stupid for you

Maybe it's silly, well, I'm that too

I'm silly, stupid, dumb, and

In love with you