A Gift to Myself

In this moment I feel good about being alone. I feel optimistic and have a sense of possibility because I know deep passion and connection are out there. Being alone means that I am open to those experiences, I don't have to worry about missing out on them. Sometimes the loneliness feels unbearable, but in this moment I am accutely aware that my current condition is a neccessary prerequisite to the kind of conection I want to have with someone. It may feel easier to accept lesser forms of intimacy in the meantime, and as long as those forms don't tie me down, I see no harm in them. But having the knowledge that I am alone by choice so that I can be happier in the long run, brings its own comfort. I am choosing to be faithful to myself and my own spirit, drive, and intuition, rather than to another person. And I can't think of a better way of knowing myself.