A Fistful Of Heaven
I’m holding on and refusing to let go

There are some days that I tend to struggle
Other days where I wake feeling at peace,
Some days I will easily become the winner
And others where the pain will never cease.
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At times I practically beg to feel nothing
As my day has carried on for far too long,
But there are also times I wish I could feel
As being constantly numb is just so wrong.
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I remember many horrid days of hurting
It’s on these nights my demons bury me,
Then a blissful day will finally transpire
I’ll bury my demons, not letting them free.
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On the nights I struggle with my demons
It would be so easy to give in and give up,
But then I dig into my strength once more
And it’s my demons I successfully beat up.
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Every time my body and heart gets broken
I dig deep into my strength and remember,
That I will always hold a fistful of heaven
A guiding light that’s always my defender.
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I dig deeper knowing exactly what I’ll find
Along with my fistful of heaven, I discover
I have way too much hell left in me to give
My temper, my pain, will be seen if I suffer.
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About the Creator
Colleen Millsteed
My first love is poetry — it’s like a desperate need to write, to free up space in my mind, to escape the constant noise in my head. Most of the time the poems write themselves — I’m just the conduit holding the metaphorical pen.
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Comments (5)
Very relatable, great job🥰👍
This hits home. Lovely
Beautifully written poem! I found it very relatable and inspiring.
Wowww this was just too deep and very relatable!
Simply beautiful. Previously hearted though.