A Clear Fading

I’m hurting you,

and I can’t say sorry.

I look myself in the mirror,

and I see the dark in me.

I want to say sorry,

I’m helping your killers,

and I falsely feel right,

before realising it down in me.

I want to say I’m sorry,

because I wanted to free me,

not thinking that this meant,

no freedom for you.

I want to feel healed,

but I made too many mistakes,

and I have to pay for making them.

I made false promises to me,

and I forgot them,

as much I forgot how much I care,

for you.

I want to say sorry,

for my same false promises,

that led to the forgotten problem,

and to forgotten pains,

that I have to live, with it, again,

praying to not hurt you, more.