You’re fat.
I’m aware of
The flaws on my body,
How my ribs stay hidden
Underneath the layer of
Fat.
From 1200 calories a day down to 800,
Every ounce of food exactly portioned out.
On a good day, you’d have nothing.
I began to measure things in absence
Rather than presence,
A single space
Between my thighs.
Purple kisses painted along my olive
Skin, clothes tight
Collarbones as sharp as my mind.
I lost myself in the numbers;
Day 1: 160 pounds.
Each part of my body labeled in inches;
Day 20: 27-inch waist.
Checking every nutrition label;
One egg white is 25 calories.
Diet pills and laxatives rattle in my purse;
Day 40: 138 pounds,
My BMI must be 18 by Christmas.
Intravenous drips shoved in my skin;
Goal weight 1: 125 pounds reached.
The needles tattooed my arms.
A story left untold.
To relapse or recover
It’s an ongoing battle
I may be
Weight restored
But I still hear
Its voice.
Fat.
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'20/20'
"Do It Again" the track that would ultimately open the Beach Boys final album on Capitol Records which was released on February 10th 1969 had originally been released as a single in August of 1968. The track was the first of many post-Pet Sounds era throwbacks to the early Beach Boys sound which would become continually more cliched and eventually lead the Beach Boys to the level of self-parody they would eventually succumb to in the 1980s while their closest contemporaries The Beatles nearing the end of their run in 1969 would go on to be viewed as the most influential band of all time. However, the song itself is not bad on its surface, and it opens with a futuristic sounding (for 1969) drumbeat captured by then-Beach Boys engineer Stephen Desper using tape delays on the drums performed by Dennis Wilson and John Guerin. The song has been re-recorded numerous times over the years on various Beach Boys-related projects most notably the 2011 re-recording at Capitol studios featuring the five surviving Beach Boys at the time backed instrumentally by various members of both the Brian Wilson Band and Mike Loves touring "Beach Boys" to promote the then upcoming Beach Boys 50th Anniversary reunion tour in 2012. The hammering and power drill sound at the end of the song was an excerpt from a track called "Workshop" that was to be a part of the uncompleted "SMiLE" album.
By Sean Callaghan7 days ago in Beat
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One day at a time works for many afflictions. ❤️ Beautiful expression of your experience through your writing.