3 Years

I saw you in class

and every time I saw you you’d make a pass

and I’d just giggle and laugh

because you were my friend, I couldn’t ruin that.

Years and years you stayed by my side

you told me all your problems and I told you mine.

You still made your passes and eventually I caved.

We were so happy, I thought we had it made

I thought I played it safe, but I just ended up getting played.

You said I was the one and we planned a life together

but little did I know you were just waiting for someone better.

You were kissing her hips while you were kissing my lips

So kiss her lips, then mine, tell me it tastes the same

Tell me you weren’t saying her name

I’m tired of playing this game

The manipulation of my feelings making me feel like a psycho

But little did I know

That your love was not love

Little did I know

That you would be the death of me

The death of me

For someone so bad

I couldn’t even get mad

I was dumb

I wanted to wait for you

To change

To stop making me crying like I was drunk

No, I wasn’t a slut

Why are you making me cry for getting drunk

I’m drinking to forget the pain you’ve caused me

It wasn’t my fault he was all up on me

It wasn’t my fault that I couldn’t fight back

You’re the one that cheated

And you know that’s not what this is

You blamed me for everything

So naturally I did too

I’m done with this abuse

And I’m done thinking of you

I hope you think of me

Just know I’m doing well

I’m stronger now

All without your help

I’m stronger now and I’m not the same

can’t believe what a difference three years can make