2/21/2021

Early morning something just didn’t feel right

My feelings were unexplainable

I felt as numb as I ever did

As if of a part of me was was ripped from me

Not Moments later

I Get the news you are no longer with us

At that very moment

I lost myself

I couldn’t feel anything

I was as lost as I’ve ever been

Crawled myself into this dark hole

I Couldn’t tell what was real and what wasn’t anymore

Feelin so much spite

For those who did this to you

Wanting to speak on my pain but

Would they even look at me the same?

They wouldn’t that’s

no doubt

People are only here for now

Trying to convince myself that you are actually gone

But my brain just doesn’t want to accept it

I don’t want to accept it

you were suppose to have years

We were suppose to do things

See things

Even if we didn’t end up doing any of the things we talked about

You were suppose to do things

And I was happy because you were happy

You kept me going on days I thought I couldn’t

You made me realize the strength I never knew I had

nothing was handed to us

we went and got it

We fought for what we believed in

We fought for ours

We did what we had to do

And always stayed true

always kept a smile when everything was falling apart

Because not only did I know I’d always have a real one by my side but

A person who shared my pain

A person I knew I could talk to and there wouldn’t be no judgement

A person who’d do anything for the ones he loved

I went through hell and back for you as you did for me

And I’d do it all over again if it meant having you here with us today