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September 19, 2018

I cant tell…

If I’m going to throw up

Or cry, but regardless I feel like I’m going to die.

I cant stand the thought of another moment, without you by my side

I want you & nothing else.

Why cant I just have you for myself?

I cant take this empty shell of a life.

Daddy come back to me , just undo all the fucked shit .

You were supposed to make me your wife,

Wtf… happened… why?

What did I do? You took everything from me , including myself & my sanity

Why did you do it…? Why couldn’t you stay loyal through it ?

Im sorry for the fucked shit , that I did after we split.

Idk , I was just trying to understand why the fuck you did it.

Oh …daddy?

I just don’t get it , how could you…. Ruin me ?

And be so fucking savage , you destroyed me , for sport….

And still just kept pushing more and more… always more… one way or another…

You were like a blood thirsty monster.

Any remaining hope of a future together Is no longer.

Im still trying to convince myself that I even want to live anymore.

Every shred of my existence…. Torn .

Like you were getting revenge for something , that never began , nor ended.

All in all my entire existence fucking blended,

To a pulp of of soggy, pathetic , sadness.

Fighting back tears and choking on madness

I just hope you feel sad when you realize that you had this.

It could have been bliss , pure fucking magic.

But instead you destroyed me, and only left sadness.

It's fucked up, but the truth is, shit happens.