Power and Ability

Power and ability

I’ll tell you something that might really shock you, throughout my 30 years on this earth, about 23 of those years I always chose the difficult path, even when the straight path was an option. I was once selfish, careless, and destructive (I believe those would be the right words to describe me). However, every road I’ve been down has played a vital role in molding me into the person I am today. I wouldn’t change my past for anything. I don’t even think a million dollars would be enough compensation for the wisdom, knowledge, and strength I’ve gained by going down the roads I’ve been down.

At least once a week I try to reflect and think about what happened that week, look back at everything that was thrown at me each day and really evulate the situation, if I handled it the way I should have or If I would have done something differently. I think about the good things that happened and bad. Think about my achievements, disappointments and come up with my goals for the next week as well as make a to do list.

Last week I felt out of control. Everyday I woke up in fear of what the day would hold. Fear? That word shouldn’t even be in my vocabulary. Why would I be fearful of something I can’t see or something that’s out of my control? I can’t live in fear of what might happen, nor will I. When something’s thrown at me, I just handle it. I don’t fear for the future because I know I have the best interest of my girls at heart and will never fail because their counting on me. I know I’m on the right path, the straight one. If I’m not scared of my future why would I be scared of what the next 24 hours holds for me?

Then the words power and ability popped into my head.

I see power as beauty. I’m not talking about a type of power that you have in your job or your relationship, I’m talking about the kind of power where YOU have complete control of your life and know exactly what you want out of it. The kind that’s so strong you have carefully mapped out each destination and even though some roads might be closed or construction holds you up, you know you can handle anything with the ability to stay calm and reroute yourself. The kind of power you know your destined for greatness and the ability to truly know you’ll achieve it. The power to be able to know which friends are toxic and not good for your life with the ability to cut them out of your life. The power to understand there are people that will use you and the ability to say no. The power to control your own mind, thoughts, life and even if somehow you’ve slid in the passengers seat, you know you have the ability to get out and back behind the wheel. The power to know your worth and value and the ability to never settle for less. To understand you deserve someone that choses you every single day with the ability to leave them alone if you know they won’t. The power to know you have dreams/goals, aspirations and that you WILL reach your full potential, but the ability to see the ones trying to stop you. The power to understand not everything always revolves around you, your selflessness, caring and loving heart shows how much you have to offer. The power that you love yourself so much because without that your Ability to love someone else can’t happen. A kind of power that’s so strong you can take control of your life and if feel your not in the right direction with ability to drop bombs and not be scared to do so. The power to be able to tell yourself it’s okay to struggle, because we all go through hard times, but the ability to change your path. The power to overcome fear and understand being fearful of something doesn’t make you less of a person, that even though it seems like it’s coming at you 80mph you know you have the ability to squash it with all your willpower. The power to allow yourself to dream for more and want more and the ability to understand hard work and dedication will make those dreams come true.

Power is absolutely beautiful (if you use it in the correct way). The power to be able to tell yourself and truly know this is your life, you control it and your the only one that can change it. The ability to stick to your values, understand your worth, and know you’ll never settle for less. Once you truly poss both of these qualities your ability to see that once this recipe is mixed and fresh out of the oven, a 5 star Michelin Restaurant will begin to taste like casa ole.