Personal Journey

I don't know what it was but ever since my uncle came back to California for a short visit. Life seems to have done a complete turn around for me. Having this conversation about our mental health was just so important for me. He came at a time where I’d been digging deep into the teachings of Neville Goddard, Joe Dispenza and Wayne Dyer. Just having this conversation with him and seeing his peace really gave me some sense of validation that if he could overcome his battles and find the strength to go on I could do it too!

He shared his tips of how he went from being this man with addictions, overweigh, stressed, easy tempered to this zen-out peace loving guy. It blew me away because it was an overnight change. See here's the thing I previously was working for a senior living facility in the memory care department. It is something so beautiful to work and serve others but over time I began feeling like I was dying inside. I started to feel trapped and my frustrations were starting to affect my work. I was not as thrilled to be there. I wasn’t doing things from a loving place. I knew I needed to make a change but I was too afraid to leave work and not have any income. I eventually left the facility to become a private caregiver. The independence I felt and freedom was something so amazing. But eventually that faded and I started working long 16 to 18 hours days for a few months until the man I was caring for passed away. During those months I had completely lost my mind and my relationships began to suffer. I had lost myself and began drinking, smoking, and overeating.

I finally hit bottom. I was an emotional wreck, a physical wreck. I found that I unconsciously gave up on life and stopped fighting to want anything more.

So as I was listening to my uncle I was self reflecting. Taking notes of what areas of my life I’d like to improve.

I began my journey to follow his advice:

Tell yourself you live in a happy healthy body 9xs at least 3xs a day.

Love and let things go. If you’re working a 9 to 5 don’t kill yourself over a company they

don’t care about you or your family, do your work the best you can and go home.

If you’re unhappy, find something you want to do and do it!

Those 4 common basic tips we have all heard at least once in our lives were so profound for me. I’m sitting here talking to myself like, “REALLY, Tee? you couldn’t have understood this 10 years ago when you had no child and the world was at your feet?”.

NO! Okay, I couldn’t because I couldn’t see past the Bullshit. I didn’t work hard enough to silence those voices. So now being an adult and taking responsibility for my actions I have included this as part of my routine. I wake up and tell myself just that, “I live in a Happy Healthy Body.”, go to the mirror self talk, workout while listening to Eric Thomas. I began self love and reminding myself of who I am. I started working around my family's schedule.

I must admit I am much happier now that I have added those simple tips in my life.

Remember Nothing is going to change unless you make the change and once you do you have to make the commitment to follow through everyday and remember your whys. Why do you want a better life? Why do you want a better body? Why do you need to heal your relationship?

Above all Love yourself first no change can come until you see your self worth.

With that I leave my thoughts and a question for yourself,

Can You See Past the Bullshit?

Peace -Tee