Of hearts and minds

I didn’t choose to be born but here I am living this thing called life. I was doing well until I was diagnosed with cancer. You know before cancer I always admired people from different walks of life. My favorite thing used to be going outside for a walk and coming across people and studying them. Most times it hurt me to see other people because their eyes would be lifeless and full of pain. That would usually leave my mind racing with the idea of having the ability to solve people's problems. But yes cancer has changed my life and I learned that being diagnosed with cancer is not the hardest part but hearing the three words you are dying is. A couple of weeks pass and there is nothing the doctors can really do for me. A social worker visits me every other day to ask me about what I would want for my make-a-wish but I didn’t want to think about It. It means that death is creeping around the corner. It means that my time is coming up. I know I said I didn’t choose to be born but I haven’t lived yet. I want to do something with my life. The social worker is very persistent though so one day she came back to my room with the CEO of make-a-wish. I was surprised to see the CEO because there was no need for him to be here or at least I thought. The CEO has a positive attitude and even manages to make me laugh once. He tells me that I can choose anything and that he will make it happen. It took me a while but after I raced back and forth with my thoughts I asked for twenty thousand dollars. The CEO was now shaken and he wondered why I asked for twenty thousand dollars but he didn’t ask. Instead, he informs me of something he has ready for me and I listen. He offers me a small black notebook and he says that if I believe enough that anything is possible. And then he hands me the book and walks off without saying another word. The room is silent again and I’m left with my own thoughts. What could this small black notebook do for me? I wondered because it looks magical and odd. It doesn’t feel and look like other notebooks. It almost feels like it gives off some sort of power. Then I realized what the CEO said before he left. He said if I believed enough anything is possible. So that night I went to bed hoping that the natures of the small black notebook would be revealed to me. The next day I woke up feeling better than usual. Then it hit me all of sudden why I wanted twenty thousand dollars and why the CEO gave me the small black notebook. The CEO knew my heart. He knew I wanted to help people. He knew that I loved watching people and he knew that it hurt me to see others suffer. He knew what I was going to ask for when he came into my room that day because he knew I had others at heart. He knew what I was all about. And now I know what I will do with the money and the notebook even if it means using my last days for others. In a few days, the small black notebook will reveal its magic and I will be ready. A few days passed and now the time has come. In the next couple of days, I will use the twenty thousand dollars to travel around the world and take people’s pain away. Whoever comes across me and whoever is in pain will magically have their life changed for the better. The small black notebook has the ability to take people’s pain away. The downside is that I cant save myself but this is my purpose. This is the life I was dealt and I am happy to lay my life for others. I did this for a few months and I saved countless lives. There was a girl on the edge of the bridge about to end her life. She reminded me of myself the first few weeks of my cancer journey, I opened the small black notebook and her pain and all her thoughts were drained from her and into the book. She breathed in and she was filled with a new life. She took a step down and came running past me with a smile and tears running down her face. And this was something I loved doing. But twenty thousand dollars could only last for so long and my time was running out. When I accepted the magic book I accepted the risk of my time on this earth going down with each life I saved and gave more time to. I did my last save of my lifetime and I decided to go to the beach for what’s coming to an end. I am sitting under the beach umbrella when I decide to open the small black notebook and I am saddened but also content to see the faces of the people I impacted. These people were now living a happy life because of the sacrifice I made and I am for once grateful to have been born. I had a purpose and I served it. I took my last breath in awe knowing the CEO was on his way to choosing his next savior, the next person who will be dealt with the small black notebook.