NEW YEAR... NEW RULES?

Now, it is true that smoking and drinking go hand-in-hand but I beg to differ. you would expect someone that was a heavy smoker to be an equally heavy drinker and if they should embark on quitting, to stop the two habits together right? Wrong. Not me, I am a realist. I will quit drinking next year. I am not a terrible drinker. Come to think of it, I have been told that I am a cool drunk. Like I get this aura of coolness wrapped around me like a cloak when I’m drunk so why would I give that up? I don’t have an answer to that yet and when I think of the bravery it took to decide to promise to give up smoking, it is totally worth it to deffer quitting something else.

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They say don’t bite more than you can chew and I try not to do that except on a really good hotdog but promising to find a life partner this year wouldn’t be considered biting off more than I can chew, would it? Then that's what I am going to do, I'm going to throw myself into the dating world like a fleshy bait and see if I don't pull in something. I shall be taking all the risks involved, doing the proverbial blind leap but I shall have a little bit of my eye showing because I’m not stupid but leap I have decided. Jump off that romantic cliff and see who will catch me. The idea makes me giddy. Onto the next resolutions of this year.

I have always felt like my apartment needed a little more life, that's why this year, I have decided to also add something huge to my life. A dog. I am going to buy a dog. I’m not buying a dog because I love animals or because I am lonely, well not completely. I want a dog because I have seen how people interact with them on social media and how friends of mine that have dogs seem to be extra full of themselves and I must admit that I am very jealous of that. I, too want to be so sure in my immunity to germs that I would let a dog kiss me in the mouth and feed of my plate. (i might not do the kissing part) As much as I am devoted to finding a life partner, a meaningful relationship, I have also decided to find something that’s going to keep me rooted to the ground into reality, to emotionally distract me when I feel like I’m drowning and to probably detect when I have cancer, hopefully in the early stages. I don’t know what kind of dog I’m gonna buy but it has to be cute. I can't stand ugly things.

So as you can see, I don’t have a lot of goals set this year. Unlike last year, I shall be dedicating this year to emotionally and habitually growing myself. Last year has been a huge emotional setback for me because I was laser-focused on advancing my career and growing myself financially that I forgot to pay attention to my emotions. This led to me expanding on my bad habits as a coping mechanism. When I am tired and exhausted from work and from worrying, I would turn to smoke and drink just like every middle-aged person, well, the average middle-aged person because not everybody smokes and drinks during hard times. My emotional strength was weakened, almost became nonexistent and I apologize to myself for that. That’s why this year has to be different. It just has to be.