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It's quite easy for me to blend.

You know, in with everything.

What it means to be a fluid energy, is that of a lifetime's worth of self discovering. I'm only 28. I'm in tune with my faith. Quite in tune with myself and the energies that surround me. When the light hits just right, its almost like I can read what is weighing in the air. And no, its not always tension. That was a poor witty attempt at a joke btw ^ I'm sure other empaths of this nature can relate. But I'm not a comedian or anything. I'm just...sharing.

Anyways, back to the blend-thing. It's easy for me now in present time, rather than before. See before I knew I could, I was the quietest thing in the world. I was (and still relatively am) the observer. The detail oriented companion. The one who wallflowered herself for the vast majority. I was the (and still am) the quiet friend. Until one day, I had seen and accepted myself as I was without fear of who was going to say anything, and I decided to speak my mind. To radiate my personality. Invite energy to my energy. Then watch how like matches we all become candles. And I'm convinced that that alone has changed everything since.

You're probably reading this thinking, "this gal makes like no sense but it still sounds nice," if I'm flattering myself enough. I'm not, just to be clear. I'm convinced that when you know the effect you have, and how other people perceive that effect, you control that bit of power that lies in that effect. In my case, I really do feel that I have a positive, luminous, and warm energy that gives me off as inviting. I also have a playful personality but the aura of an old soul. And often I have been told this before as I get to know people. Simpler terms: I just have one of those faces. Except I don't feel I'm inviting just in a friendly-face manner. No, I'm sure that when I step into a room, I am seen. And what I choose to do with that is where the great responsibility portion comes into play. What do you do with being the upper hand, when you're the popular girl? The one that others wanna trust in, build in, play with, or confide in?

Which side of the coin do you fall on?

I choose the side of light. I'm happy knowing that at both a young/old age (28 is somewhere in the middle) I know who I am. And beyond that, that I choose to see the light things in other(s) too. I live in a time where everyone seems to know everything. And because of this, I feel like really everyone navigates as their own governed Island. Where everything is seemingly always about them. Granted, that's all of us a little bit in our human behaviours yeah? We all live in bubbles. But with this, loneliness comes into our little bubbles with us and like the humans we are, we reach out to interact with each other. We crave that drink from the well because that's just what we do. When it comes to justifying the little things we forget. Or just having an honest listening ear. When it comes to just being decent. And a bit whimsy, I'll add: this is how others find me, and find me again when needed.

I dabble with if its ever truly wanted as opposed to needed.

There are two sides to every coin. The good and bad. Light and dark. And each lives within us. Not in a possessive manner, but in the sort that you're ever really one or the other at the given moment. I like to think I stand balanced but willingly choose to try to do better. Because I want to be light. And so I seek it like fire. Being only human, it is such a fantastic thing. Because seeking as a human continuously leaves you thirsting for the very next thing. It's never enough.

Anyways, how does this relate to blending? It seems like I wander(ed) off! I have this nature where I go anywhere or go nowhere, and I just blend in. Like a chameleon. And make no mistake, I am not hidden, but it's almost as if I am meant to be wherever I am at the moment for a given purpose. And so I stick to that. It makes things easier.

Knowing your self identity is so important. You present your role in your presence and that is what your fingerprint is. You can be called so many thing(s) differently but your fingerprint---who you are---is the same regardless. You can't hide from who you are.

I am astrora. I am a dreamer. A student of life. I talk with trees and I reflect with the wind. I drink my coffee black, I read by the window when it rains and I smile and say please and thank you. I hold the door for others. I try to be fair. I'm fashionably late, but when I arrive to the scene, I am seen. And I see you, too.

Meet me. The pleasure is all mine.