Life is what you make it

As I sit here I truly want to say that I am grateful for the journey that I have been on . I cannot say that it has been easy but I feel free, I feel enlightened and I am so excited for what the future has to offer me.

I have made decisions in the past that have been nothing close to perfect or smart to say the least and for a long time I beat myself up about the direction that my life started to take.

WELL

Today I can say that I made all of those decisions for one reason or another but had I not , I very well may not be the women I am today. What would I be without the mistakes that I made on this journey ? Who would I be without my woes. They have taught me so much. Learning from my past experiences has given me the spiritual and mental arsenal needed to prevail.

The rough patches on the journey and the bumps along the road have made me a beast ! The rocks that have cut my feet, while I trudged through the mud. The storms and bad weather that I found a rain coat to be able to endure. I made it through. To say the least I am a warrior, a spiritual savage at this point and I owe it to my journey . I owe it to the times that I have fallen and through learning and growing from my experiences and the guidance I sought to overcome them, I have been strong enough to get back up.

This life of mine wasn't chosen, It chose me . Every piece of me has prevailed through what I feel like was the dark days and I have officially stepped into my light.

The journey is far from over but I have pushed through the brunt of the hard work. The work that hurts and the work that could have made me quit. I did that and I did it on my own .

I am so grateful.

We all have had some tough times in life that have made us want to give up and just say we are done. My times happened to be just me, myself and I. I mastered hiding my pain because it felt better to help others with theirs, It came easy.

It wasn't until I mustered up the strength to face my fears, fight my demons HEAD ON and make a mockery of the things that I had let hold me back for so long. I decided to be fearless , I decided to start chasing the dreams that have always kept me up at night . I decided, more so to find out what the feeling inside of me that I never could explain meant .

I dreamed of days like this where I would no longer feel pain , where it would no longer hurt me to think about the bad decisions I've made in the past, where I am eager to tell my story .... the real story hoping that it will heal someone else and help them to feel how I feel on the inside.

I cried today while letting my therapist know how grateful I am for her. For once I have been able to release all of the negative emotions and feelings I have been harboring all of my life . I feel free, I feel like i am safe and at home within. I am beaming and feel in control of the direction that my life is headed. I have put together the pieces of my purpose and I am doing all I can possibly do to allow them to fall into place. I love my life and I am grateful for how far I have come . The weight of the world is no longer on my back and I am no longer at war within.

I am at peace . From the depths of my soul to the tips of my toes I made it, I am home , I am free and I whole heartedly love me

This is magical

This is healing

This is happy

THIS IS THE LIFE

-Alexis Jasmin