I almost quit Art

Quitting is not a surprise in modern day anymore. But it gets deep when someone quits on their passion. I mean how can you quit something that you are passionate about? That was a question I never thought I had to answer. Until, I faced a bump road in life. It was not pleasant.

How did you almost quit Art? may be a lingering question in your mind from reading the title alone. Honestly, Art is like a seesaw for me emotionally. When Im up and going, I create art. In that moment, I feel happy and free in working on my passion. But when I’m down, I don’t create art. I feel sad and stuck.It seems like over the years my passion for art has changed. I guess you can say that I have matured. We both can agree, that growing pains is a different world.

You may be wondering why did I post a art print? Moreover, you may think that I’m conceited, because I posted a work of art that is a self portrait of me. That is so far from the truth. Honestly, I didn’t post it to brag or show off my art skills. The reasoning of why I created my self portrait is very personal. I make art to serve and make an impact to the world.

Let’s get to the root of the problem. The main reason why I almost quit Art was because I lacked confidence in myself. Admitting this is my first step of healing. I didn’t realize it was my lack of confidence until I stopped making Art. I had time to reflect on my art journey. I know what you’re thinking that I can’t move forward looking back at my past. But reflection is like the first step in moving in the right direction for closure.

“Try something new” was a constant thought when I had taken a break from Art. Again, I reflected on my art journey. I re-examined my “why” in making art. In the beginning, I made art for fun and to be expressive. That changed when I lacked confidence in myself.

In the past, I defined confidence as “ instant gratification”. It was something I always struggled with since childhood. I never realized how “confidence” impacted my life. Confidence affects my self esteem and work ethic.

Getting support from others quickly boost our confidence. Hearing the excite phrase “Good Job!” from others can turn anyone’s frown upside down. I realized that I depended on others support to boost my confidence. I was placing major weight on others that was too much to carry.

I realized true confidence is when you believe in yourself. I’m not coaching some phrase to just be heard. I meant it literally. To develop high self-esteem and achieve better work performance, you must believe in your self. Confidence is inner belief. What inner is defined and controlled by you. I wanted peace and to follow my passion therefore, truly being confident in myself helped me in ways I couldn’t imagine.

There is a bigger picture. I decided to make art to serve and to help others be confident in themselves. I wanted to make art that would inspire someone else. When we are confident in ourselves we can be our best selves and accomplish our goals. We can make the world a better place when we become better as individuals. I beganed to keep going on the bumpy road of life. Because, I realized that the journey gets better when you keep going.

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