Finding Myself Again

I put all the dirty dishes in dishwasher, cleaned all the mess from kitchen. Felt a little relax that minor part of my daily routine was done. I made a cup of tea for my few minutes of break. I opened the laptop while checking my emails my mobile rang, it was my friend calling. I answered her call and I come to know that she was looking for work. We chatted for a few minutes and ended the call.

I forgot and started my daily routine house work- cooking, cleaning doing laundry and grocery shopping. So I told my self that "Kitchen is your office".

Next day, I woke up early morning, after finishing my prayers as routine I went to my kitchen. After completing all the chores in the kitchen, suddenly I realised that I hadn't cooked any dish for the lunch for son to take school and also for my husband. I look at the time, I was short of time, less than a hour. I quickly made one pot pasta boneless chicken. Days passed and then year passed and my daily routine remained the same. No change in daily routine. The change was in myself, I started gaining weight. I realized that I was not active, all I was getting tired I needed time for my self too.

I made a plan that I needed break from house work, so I thought about visiting my friend place in another city and spending time with her. I wondered if my daughter was free to come with me. I checked her time table on her desktop and among lots of folders one folder caught my eye. Yes one one folder "My Stories", this one attracts my attention. I opened it, and my daughter sitting on bed gave me beautiful smile. I was surprised to see how creative my daughter is and even more thrilled when she show me her old book where her story was published. I felt proud for her, then a suddenly a small voice inside me said "try to write". As usual, I ignored my inner voice and started doing my routine job.

My son during his A level, he started looking for part time job. One day he told me he got one, he was very happy and as mother I was extremely happy for him. When he received his first salary, he made me proud. But it made me realized that I needed a change in my life, some positive and healthy change.

Next day after my work, I started joining the dots my daughter is writing stories and my son has started earning. I stood in front of the mirror and asked myself "during youth time what were your hobbies, what you were good at?" And then I realised that I and my friends used to write comics. We made small cartoons and wrote short stories. These stories were two to three pages. We read them to each other. That beautiful memories felt so alive and warm, a beautiful smile came on my face. I simply took my lap top and started searching about story writing.

Today now the laptop is in my lap. I am sharing my feelings by writing story. A story of mother, how she changed her self by giving time to her. How she was inspired from her children. How her beautiful childhood and youth memories guided her to the correct path.

As a full time mum and homemaker, I am taking a further step into some thing new. I felt so happy that finally I found my self .

This is not a fiction story, it is a true story of a very busy mum, whose life was revolved around the kitchen and one day how she realized that she needs a change, a more healthy and positive change. A inner changed which helps her to grow mentally and physically. Its never too late to realized that "I can do it too"