Finding freedom in lockdown
The perspective of a single woman in her early 30s

I broke free from a lot during this past year and as bizarre as it sounds I am very glad that we as society got this wake-up call when we did. Surely, there were some tough realisations to be made...the vulnerability of our health and finances amongst other things, but most importantly there was one crucial wake-up call for me: we as society are a lot unhappier underneath the surface.
Let's talk about how happy we were under the surface after all, once all the daily noise, activity and distraction was taken away from us. Essentially, even in the depth of lockdown most of society had access to all of the following: a roof over our head and food on the table, digital communication with loved ones as well as the entire wider world that is full of inspiring people, access to digital and printed knowledge and education, access to arts/crafts/music, access to walks/nature, a brilliant loving relationship with ourselves and life as a whole that enabled us to take great joy in all that life offered us despite lockdown...well, the last point is the one that unfortunately many people did not have access to.
Once the escapism of entertainment was taken away, we were all left with the raw reality of our situation, physically but most importantly mentally. A lot of people found more emptiness than anticipated with no access to all the things they would have normally filled this emptiness with. Now there were two potential paths to take here - either to show as much resistance to this undesirable state of lockdown and isolation as possible and to simply hold on to the idea of this only being a temporary thing waiting to fill the emptiness with the usual entertainment again as soon as possible; or to give in to the situation, the discomfort, the new questions about our life and identity that were coming up in our heads and see how we ourselves could possible evolve and adapt in order to not just survive but to thrive in this entirely new circumstance. I chose the latter and I am so thankful to myself that I did.
More than anything this choice let me to a lot of alone time thinking about my life, my ambitions, the purpose of life overall, where I was going in life to date, whether that aligned with my deepest dreams and desires, and the overriding realisation was that I had been playing it safe, been caught up in a lot of unhealthy routines and limiting beliefs, had a lot of big dreams but no real road map towards living them any time soon. After getting tired of thinking everything over and over I had to get out of my head so I started observing others on social media, started to realise that there were clearly two camps...the people that were showing a lot of resistance, and the people that slowly started to adapt, grow and even flourish...I knew what camp I wanted to be in and the fact that I was full of big optimistic dreams already and people were saying that this is the time to learn new skills somehow gave me the push to start writing a road map that would take me from where I was to my dreams...and with that I was set in motion and I never looked back.
I made a list of all the reasons why I wasn't living the life of my dreams already, and gosh it was a painful list...I am not confident enough, I am not experienced enough, I have a terrible relationship with money were just some of the things coming up...thank goodness for the internet and all the ways you can connect with content and tutors that will help you overcome all these things. It took me an online networking course, a virtual business conference, joining network marketing, joining a female entrepreneur network and hiring a 1-2-1 life coach to get to where I am today and let me tell you, this journey has only just started but this is how it's going:
I have an incredibly strong why that motivates me every day to strive towards my goals and desires. I feel no resistance or pressure with regards to reaching my destination as it's all about the journey of slowly, gradually immersing myself into this new life of my own choice and freedom. I have discovered the power of visualisation, manifestation and intuition vs a purely rational limiting mindset. I have healed my money mindset. I am aware of my strength and weaknesses and I can use my weaknesses to my advantage now. I have become so much more confident. I can visualise my desired destination in life in such great detail as if I was already living this life today...I have started to live this life and my current reality is finally not disconnected from my desired reality anymore, they feed each other beautifully.
To anyone that can resonate with my 'finding freedom in lockdown' message - welcome to my tribe, I am truly proud of how far we have come with our mindset. But most importantly, to anyone that cannot resonate and still experiences lockdown as being stuck, please do this one thing: write out how your dream life would be in all its entirety and in as much detail as possible (personal relationships, career, hobbies, where you'd live, down to your daily routine from waking up to falling asleep), think about how many of these things you could technically do right now (even if in an adapted shape or form for now), and finally think about how many of these things you are not doing at all right now and why - start doing these things little by little and you will start living your dream life right now, freely and regardless of any current global circumstance.
My dream was watching the Cayman Island sunset every night yet I didn't even bother to pay attention to the London sunset most nights...this is only one of many things I have changed. You too can make changes, and it all starts with you at home in silence.
I wish you so much happiness!
Anja x
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