2020-New

2020-New

I was never big on ‘New Year’ themes, but since this pandemic I have become more self aware. It does mean, I make all the right decisions. It means being self aware to make things right within me.

For me, socializing is a gift and curse.

Seldom do I find myself just scrolling, without a care in the world. Convincing myself it was/is research. Needing to be current. Thirsting for the breaking news or latest updates. I became a ‘functional social media head’, because my work still gets done.

The gifts are just as prevalent. See on the internet can allow you to create a whole story, personae and brand that followers/watchers can form their own assumptions without knowing the facts.

So today, I'm on a day of ‘fasting’ from social media. I absolutely needed a break. I told myself for a week. I need a reset. I need to focus. Life moves so fast. I don’t want to feel the need to catch up, I want to run my race at my pace.

When I was younger, I can admit in a rush to grow up and get my dream job. Life said, I got this. I had no idea being an adult meant having to endure challenges, heartbreaks, unemployment and falling to get back up. I learned. I learned fast.

If I make it until Friday, Thank goodness. This fast is meant to prove to myself that I can take my time and enjoy life no matter the circumstances. My only competition is me. Self control is the key.

I remember needing to share everything online. Then at some point, I didn’t feel comfortable showing private moments of my life. I didn't intend to overshare. I want my post to have meaning. I want people to come to my page to feel motivated and positive.

Although, some days even I struggle to stay positive and motivated. On those days, I stay to myself. I never want my struggles to effect others. I want to use my struggles as my testimony and encourages someone to over come their struggles. Instead of announcing every storm, I share the results of the storm. Whether it be a treasure chest full of gold or an amazing opportunity, I knew I couldn't get it without the storm.

Plants can't grow without water. Everything on earth needs water in some way, but even to much water can cause you to drown. It's like, looking at a glass of water that is either half full or half empty. It's all on how you choose to look at it.

In comparison, social media has made connecting with loved ones, friends, classmates, and network so easy. Yet, the online image is only a small part o that person's life. As much as I care about how people are doing, it comes a point where in even social media could be just as damaging then real life.

For me, taking a break means turning down the noise. I am able to focus on what matters to me. It is nothing against anyone, but for my own peace of mind. I don't want to compare my life to anyone, but my own. I don't want to feel bad for not being certain places in my life. By being self aware, I can be a better image of myself, with no outside influences.

2020 - New is not really about new year, new me. It's about evolving into someone better. It's about consciously reaching my full potential.