What I Learned Watching Tarot

Have you felt those moments where you are so mentally blocked? Like, you don't know what you should do next with your life, or nothing ignites your passion to do anything in life. Well, when I get such moments, I turn to Tarot.

Disclaimer! I'm not a Tarot reader nor do I sell Tarot cards. I'm genuinely here to write about my experience watching Tarot videos for over 4 years now and the role they've played to get me where I am today.

It all started in the fall of 2017 when everything felt strange in my life. I walked through life like a zombie. Everybody whom I knew were moving away to a different city or country to upgrade their lives. I, on the other hand was staying exactly where I was 2 years back and did not take any big step to change my life.

In such a time when my mental state was aimless, hopeless and passion-less, came a Youtube video squashing the rest of the recommended videos in an attempt to win my attention. And my attention, it did win! It was 2 AM and I had nothing else to do other than to watch it, even if Youtube's algorithm only gave it to me as a means to introduce a new genre into my suggestion list. So, I patiently watched the video till I could get a grasp of it all which showcased a deck of cards that I'm not familiar with. It had a 'Paige', a 'Hierophant' and whatnot. At one point he said something that changed my perspective all together. He said that the 'Tower' showing up in my reading was an indication that a cycle was going to end and a new one was to begin soon. IT. WAS. A. MOMENT. OF. PURE. HOPE.

All of a sudden I'm this energetic person ready to take on any battle. I calmed myself down into the new energy and put myself to sleep by repeating the words in my head..'end of a cycle'... 'new beginning'.. 'old life is going away'..'new opportunities are going to come'. It's funny how human brain can build things on the go. Believing that something new is going to come my way, I took my miserable life less seriously and started looking for opportunities outside. I felt that if I quit, I would be in the best place to get a new one. So, I did it. A month passed, I couldn't find anything good but I was still standing strong with a hope given by a guy picking funny cards in a video.

Strangely enough, in the next few weeks that followed, my Department Head approached me with a questionnaire to know about my reasons for quitting and on what he could do to retain me. Apparently, the Management was not ready to let go of people that they've invested on. I grabbed the opportunity like a lion grabbing its prey. I negotiated. Yes. I did it for the first time. I asked for a promotion, salary rise, an opportunity to lead my own team and an opportunity to work at onsite for a client. It was a big leap but here's the thing, I felt stagnated but that doesn't mean I didn't put in hard work. None of my clients complained on me and all the projects I worked on were successful with good amount of contribution from my end.

So, I asked for more. And what did I get? I got salary rise, for sure. A new project in which I was the Team Lead. A promise of a promotion and a promise of an opportunity to work at onsite. Is that a bad deal? Not in my head. I asked for more and I got a bit less than 'more'. Okay, a lot less than 'more'. But it was way better than what I had before. Imagine if I asked for less? I might have gotten even less than all of what I got. And this is the moral I learnt and keep using it to date.

If you ask for more, you will get a bit less than 'more'. If you ask for less, you will get a bit less than 'less'

And guess what? My Department Head did keep the promise. The next half-year, I got promoted to Senior and in the next project, I went on to travel and work at one of the client locations in Europe. Not bad for an aimless, hopeless and passion-less Tarot watcher!

And, of course, I still keep watching it whenever I'm down or feel like I'm losing my patience. I learnt a lot about myself just by watching it and self-reflecting on my own life and incidences.

I'm NOT writing this to recommend Tarot. It's a medium that worked for me but the message here is to keep your mind open to any incident, conversation or even a quote that could spark you and bring new hope into your life. After all, what is life without hope?

I like telling stories that motivate others even in the least way possible. Sometimes, I use incidences from my own life. Other times, I write from a general point of view.

Love, Kay Kay