Open letter to Covid-19

Hello Covid-19,

It's an interesting time, isn't it? We knew somewhere in our subconscious that you were coming, but we never fully anticipated the internal shifting of our consciousness that came alongside your arrival.

I wish at times like this I was a historian, so I could document all of the interesting things you are triggering off around the world. But instead, I want to thank you Covid-19 for creating this crisis - a crisis of scale not seen since WWII - for reminding me who I am. ​

Like many people, I have been going through somewhat of an existential crisis since 2016; triggered by a combination of the shattering of my belief systems, a new relationship, empty nest syndrome and some injuries, including falling out of a headstand. I haven't seen an end to this inner chaos until you, Covid-19. I've been muddling through, trying to remember who I am, or more importantly, BE who I am. Completely, un-apologetically and freely, but you reminded me who I am and why I'm here.

During 2016 I started to feel some sense of this authentic self, but it was shattered by the awareness that my 2016 identity was built on my ego, not my true self, not my light. I was being someone who I thought the world expected to see, particularly in the yoga community. But it was inauthentic. I wasn't being the true me; the me I was born to be, or even the me I was as a child.

But three things happened to change all that for me; I met a new friend who I resonated with on such a deep soul level that it awoke something within me, I watched this video here, and the world went into quarantine, all thanks to you Covid-19.

These three things woke the dormant me, who has been hiding behind fear of being seen and a striving to be small, to be invisible and to be unheard. I would never go through that existential crisis ever again, it was nothing less than an internal tsunami which washed away all who I thought I was. But now, I can see the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel; the only truth that I can hold onto is to trust in me, who I am, who I was and who I will be.

Like many people, I was trying to be like others is soul-destroying and we only get one shot at this life as this person, so I need to make it right, I need to step fully into me, into my light and into my truth.

So, despite the chaos and madness that you are creating in the world Covid-19, trust that I am deep in stillness, I see you for what you are and I am here.

I AM HERE.

You can bring down the metaphorical houses around us; our economic and social systems, our bureaucratic systems, our education and health systems, you can destroy families and take away loved ones who die all alone, but know this, I am not alone. The people reading this letter are also here.

We are awakening.

We are strong.

We are resilient.

We have a vision for a better world, a more equitable world, a kinder world, a more compassionate world where honesty, truth and authenticity resonate.

And Covid-19, I want to thank you from the depths of my soul for bringing me the most amazing gift, my true self. But more importantly, I want to thank you for being the trigger for a global awakening of consciousness and if I am the only one, then your chaos has been worth it, but I'm pretty sure I'm not alone. We are rising.

In love,

Alyssa

©Alyssa Curtayne 2020